Becoming Mommy: 17

This week was filled with a beautiful baby shower for momma Tianna and baby Aurora and SNOW. I am not a fan of snow, but it was nice to get some extra rest at home. I am starting to feel just a little more pregnant, and I can't wait to have a consistent bump so people stop giving me the weirdest look when I say I am. I decided to put up some pictures from our six year dating anniversary on Halloween (much warmer days) when our baby was just a tiny tiny blueberry!

Cravings: Chocolate Milk, Cookie Dough, and Veggies with Ranch (yay for some semblance of health!)

Aversions: Nothing really: But I still don't choose onions or add them to anything.

Baby size: Onion (blech!)

Recent Emotional Feelings: I have been feeling really excited about life with the baby! I have also felt this weird twinge of hurt when people talk about other people who can't have babies. It makes me really sad for them. But sometimes I also feel like everyone kind of looks at us like "Oh, you have it so easy; you won't cherish your baby". I know it seems silly and I am sure it's mostly hormones, but it bothers me sometimes. I didn't have to go through the pain of miscarriage or infertility, but our baby is loved and cherished. It kind of reminds me of the verses in John where Jesus is talking to doubting Thomas. The exchange is as follows: "Then he said to Thomas, 'Put your finger here and see my hands, and bring your hand and put it into my side, and do not be unbelieving, but believe.” Thomas answered and said to him, 'My Lord and my God!' Jesus said to him, 'Have you come to believe because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.'”I think a lot of instances in our lives, Jesus lets us go through things to see them more clearly, but sometimes He graciously spares us. And sometimes in life, we feel begrudged by those who weren't spared. But hey, there is so much more life to be lived and so many more struggles to experience that it's unfair to live in pity and begrudge others. It steals your joy and the other person's joy! Don't get me wrong, I am so so grateful we haven't gone through things some others have, but please don't discount the love we have for our baby because we haven't experienced the loss others have.

 Recent Physical Feelings: I have been feeling really good. I did; however, get my first pregnant calf cramp!! Boy did it hurt!! There was no difference between that and a regular charlie horse, but it sure did catch me off guard, haha.

Things I’m most looking forward to in pregnancy: I really can't wait to start working on the nursery. I just want to hang cute curtains and set up adorable furniture and all that fun stuff!!

Things I’m most looking forward to when baby arrives: I think I am already looking forward to nap times. I know everyone says it's hard to rest when the baby rests, but I think I won't be too bad about that actually. Partially because I know my limits pretty well, and partially because Andrew's schedule will allow some awesome days home together where we can tag team to rest and get things done!

Best moment of the week: I think the best moment of this week was when I believe I felt baby movements for the first time! I still don't know for sure that it was the baby, but I am pretty certain. I was laying on the couch and for once, I couldn't tell exactly where baby was chillin in there! A few seconds later, I felt this tightening and felt bubbles and could immediately palpate where the baby was sitting. I have felt a few similar movements since, so I am pretty certain it is truly the baby and not another organ ;)

Andrew’s Shining Moment: On Sunday night, Andrew looks at me and says "Babuh, can you tell me when it's 150 days from your due date?" I said "Of course, let me look, why!?" He said "I want to read a Psalm to our baby every night until then"... *melts* You just don't find men like that very often. And I already get this one as a husband, and our baby gets him as their daddy. I just felt so so blessed.